Can't Look Me In The Eyes

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REALIZATIONS: 

Firstly, it has been a while since I've last posted something on here, I actually nearly forgot how to post a picture.

Secondly, I realized something very monumental today after making a very bold move - a very bold move made out of impulse, bewilderment, and disappointment after asking a simple question.

Do I regret it?

No, not entirely.

But I think the most important thing I learned today is that there is no point in further holding onto why you thought someone was great, if he or she can't even look you in your tearful eyes when answering questions or explaining reasoning, especially if some you knew already, but needed to hear in-person.

And especially if he or she lies right to your face.
Even that is a bold and surprising move.

It's times like these that you realize that there's no point in hurting yourself by holding onto those past beliefs.
Wanting to curl up into a ball and cry your eyes out at the feet of that person is self-destructive, self-belittling, and moronic.
Especially when you've been so strong thus far, and already mentally decided to let go a while ago.

There's no point in holding onto these people,
especially when he or she is not there for you,
or don't show sorrow or apology,
or can't even look you in the eyes.

I guess that's kind of like an unsaid goodbye, right?
Some sense of unsought closure.
A door once open, now willingly closed by you.
What a shame, though, especially when you never expected to have to

say goodbye.

EDIT: 
TVD Opp

To those I can turn to and to the prospective open and welcoming doors ahead:

And as always, a sincere thanks to the supportive friends and adult figures in my life.
You've been strong with me from day one and I will never forget your kindness, assistance, and patience (especially with a ton of reading).

Now at 124,413 words.

As was joked by someone and I found it quite humorous, so I made a meme:

Arggg

~xxj